This is part of the homily that Deacon Dave (a really good friend of my family) gave at Mass this morning. It was seriously one of the best homilies I've heard in a long time. It really seemed to kinda fit with what's gone down in my parish the last few days. Here's where it hit for me.
"When life throws the most drastic and unexpected things at you...And when that happens, good plans have to be dropped because God has another plan in mind. And suddenly, we have a choice. We can be angry and give up on God and everyone and everything else. Or we can ask ourselves, “Where is God in all of this? The truth is that God often asks much of us; He can make big demands...In ways that we cannot understand, God manages to work through human beings and human events. And if you put your trust in God, something good can come from what seems like a complete mess. God does not walk out of what happens; He stays engaged. And even when our worlds turn upside down and we reach a dead end, God is still doing a very good thing for us."
Deacon David Shea
December 19, 2010
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At the end of Deacon Dave's homily, our pastor addressed the issue about the parochial vicar. It was really hard to hear. A lot of people were crying, including me. It was like I just didn't want to hear about it anymore. Fr. Tom talking about it just made it more real. I guess a part of me was really hoping it wasn't true. I didn't sleep last night, but the good thing is that I didn't cut. Partly because of what Fr. Greg texted me last night, but also because I just didn't want to go back to that. I know it would've helped for like 5 minutes then made my life a living hell for who knows how long. I didn't want that and I sure as hell couldn't handle more pain right now. I decided it wasn't worth it.
I know I can't be angry at God for this stuff with the priest at my church, but I can't help but wonder what the heck went through the priest's head. If this had happened before Fr. Greg and Fr. Rick had come into my life, I would have NEVER trusted a priest again. Maybe this is one reason God brought them into my life: to be a support system when I felt completely betrayed. I'm thanking God for Fr. Greg and Fr. Rick because both of them have proved to me that they can be trusted. So far through this, Fr. Greg has been my support system as well as a few people at my church. Today, I had 2 people talk to me about it. One was a guy I know from just being at daily Mass so much. He looked at me and asked how I was. I said "As good as I can be." He knows that this priest was my spiritual director and that I would've probably taken it really hard. One of our family friends came up to me after Mass and said, "When I read that letter, I immediately thought of you and how this would affect you." Through my tears, I told her that it hurt pretty bad. It's amazing how supportive people are.
This is a verse from the Book of Psalms this morning that seems pretty appropriate: "It is better to take refuge in the Lord than to trust man..." -Psalm 118:8
"When life throws the most drastic and unexpected things at you...And when that happens, good plans have to be dropped because God has another plan in mind. And suddenly, we have a choice. We can be angry and give up on God and everyone and everything else. Or we can ask ourselves, “Where is God in all of this? The truth is that God often asks much of us; He can make big demands...In ways that we cannot understand, God manages to work through human beings and human events. And if you put your trust in God, something good can come from what seems like a complete mess. God does not walk out of what happens; He stays engaged. And even when our worlds turn upside down and we reach a dead end, God is still doing a very good thing for us."
Deacon David Shea
December 19, 2010
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At the end of Deacon Dave's homily, our pastor addressed the issue about the parochial vicar. It was really hard to hear. A lot of people were crying, including me. It was like I just didn't want to hear about it anymore. Fr. Tom talking about it just made it more real. I guess a part of me was really hoping it wasn't true. I didn't sleep last night, but the good thing is that I didn't cut. Partly because of what Fr. Greg texted me last night, but also because I just didn't want to go back to that. I know it would've helped for like 5 minutes then made my life a living hell for who knows how long. I didn't want that and I sure as hell couldn't handle more pain right now. I decided it wasn't worth it.
I know I can't be angry at God for this stuff with the priest at my church, but I can't help but wonder what the heck went through the priest's head. If this had happened before Fr. Greg and Fr. Rick had come into my life, I would have NEVER trusted a priest again. Maybe this is one reason God brought them into my life: to be a support system when I felt completely betrayed. I'm thanking God for Fr. Greg and Fr. Rick because both of them have proved to me that they can be trusted. So far through this, Fr. Greg has been my support system as well as a few people at my church. Today, I had 2 people talk to me about it. One was a guy I know from just being at daily Mass so much. He looked at me and asked how I was. I said "As good as I can be." He knows that this priest was my spiritual director and that I would've probably taken it really hard. One of our family friends came up to me after Mass and said, "When I read that letter, I immediately thought of you and how this would affect you." Through my tears, I told her that it hurt pretty bad. It's amazing how supportive people are.
This is a verse from the Book of Psalms this morning that seems pretty appropriate: "It is better to take refuge in the Lord than to trust man..." -Psalm 118:8
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