Tuesday, December 7, 2010

God Help Me In This Fight

At the recommendation of both Joe (my counselor) and my friend Nicki, I am currently participating in an online 60-day program for cutters. It's called "By His Wounds" and it's sponsored by the Christian organization Setting Captives Free. By His Wounds takes a biblical prospective on the cutting and emphasizes how Christ is the only way to be truly free. I just finished day 4. Here was something that was on today's section and it hit hard, and I mean HARD.


The feelings start surrounding me, the light of hope starts to dim
A tremor crawls up my body, I look down at my limbs
Scars of the past and places untouched, a visual echo of my heart
Not knowing where one ends and one begins, you can't tell them apart.


Past mistakes have left my heart feeling abused and alone
And now in the midst of blood and tears my weaknesses are shown.
My body then starts to shake and my hands quickly clench tight
I look up then to Heaven with teary eyes praying "God help me in this fight."


Lord come heal me now, help me to bear this pain
The stripes on your back I see too well but my stripes have me chained
You have the power to heal the scars on my heart and those that I can see
Please help me through, give me strength, help me from these chains break free.

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