Friday, May 2, 2014

Relapses and Getting Back Up

Since giving up my blades in February, I've only relapsed a few times. The relapses usually last a couple days and then somehow, I guess only by the grace of God, I pick myself back up and keep going. I'm doing my best. It's still tough, but Fr. Adam's been by my side helping me get back up. I'm trying to avoid a major relapse. I do not want to be cutting again everyday, multiple times a day. I know it's bad that I'm still struggling with cutting and very few people know (only one), but I think I'm getting stronger. I think.

Please keep praying for me.

Tuesday, February 4, 2014

A Big Step and Update

Wow. I haven't blogged in 4 months. Sorry about that.

I never blogged about meeting Fr. Stephen. It's a long story, but I met him in Confession in Medj and he's been my rock since I met him in August. He continues to be an amazing blessing.

I came home from Romania a month early because things were so bad. All at the recommendation of Fr. Stephen while I was visiting him in Rome in October.

The cutting has been out of control since like July. It got really bad since Christmas. But, I've decided I have to do something. I had a bad experience with counseling since I've been home, so I have to do this on my own with a few good priests and a couple friends fighting alongside me.

Today, I took a huge step. I got rid of all of my blades. I took them to Fr. Adam, my spiritual director, about an hour ago. I really have got to get my life together. And I'm hoping this was the correct first step.

Please keep me in prayer as these next few days will be very tough.