Ignatian Meditation

At my church last night, some high school and college students got together to do an Ignatian meditation based on Jeremiah 18: 1-6, which says "The word which came to Jeremiah from the LORD saying,'Arise and go down to the potter's house, and there I will announce My words to you.' Then I went down to the potter's house, and there he was, making something on the wheel. But the vessel that he was making of clay was spoiled in the hand of the potter; so he remade it into another vessel, as it pleased the potter to make. Then the word of the LORD came to me saying, 'Can I not, O house of Israel, deal with you as this potter does?' declares the LORD. 'Behold, like the clay in the potter's hand, so are you in My hand, O house of Israel.'"

I can't tell you how bad I needed to hear that. Lately, I've really been questioning my ability to start over after cutting. Sometimes I just want to give up and accept that this is my way of dealing with things and it always will be. But I know I can't do that. It's the wrong way of dealing with the crap that life throws at me. When someone confesses their sins in Reconciliation, it is said that it's like the sin never happened. God completely forgets it. The fourth verse showed me how God's forgiveness is like Him reshaping me after Confession and that I can start over after I fall.

This entire Scripture passage showed me how something bad can be turned into something good. The bad "object" is turned into something good and it is as though the bad never existed.

It was great to hear that stuff and have what people like Fr. Greg, my friend Chris who's a seminarian, and Fr. Robert have been telling me affirmed by Scripture. It makes it more true. It's like I CAN start over and God's got it covered.I tend not to trust God sometimes and think I've got it covered when I don't.

There's a verse from Brandon Heath's song called "Wait and See" that describes this perfectly. "There is hope for me yet because God won’t forget all the plans he’s made for me. I have to wait and see. He’s not finished with me yet."

God's still shaping me into the woman He wants me to be. I can't wait to see what He's got in store for me in the future.