Rough Times

Lately, life's just been tough. I haven't been myself lately and I don't know why. Satan's really trying to convince me I'm not good enough and don't deserve to be loved by anyone, especially God. It's hard because I believe that. I believe the lies. For 2 years, I denied Christ's sacrifice for me by cutting, so why should He love me now? I don't know. I'm just so frustrated. I had to leave praise and worship the other night because I felt like it was all crap. Fr. Greg texted me the other day, telling me to read Isaiah 43:1-4, which says
    ¹But now, thus says the LORD, your Creator, O Jacob,
         And He who formed you, O Israel,
         "Do not fear, for I have redeemed you;
         I have called you by name; you are Mine!
    ²"When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
         And through the rivers, they will not overflow you
         When you walk through the fire, you will not be scorched,
         Nor will the flame burn you.
    ³"For I am the LORD your God,
         The Holy One of Israel, your Savior;
         I have given Egypt as your ransom,
         Cush and Seba in your place.
    ⁴"Since you are precious in My sight,
         Since you are honored and I love you,
         I will give other men in your place and other peoples in exchange for your life.

I read that and can't help but not believe it. I feel like it's not for me, you know? I don't know. Things are just so messed up in my head lately, I don't know. I'm meeting with my spiritual director, Fr. Mike Scanlan, on Monday. Hopefully he can help me.