"The place of God in my soul is blank"

"...This terrible sense of loss, this untold darkness, this loneliness, this continual longing for God, which gives me that pain deep down in my heart. Darkness is such that I really do not see - neither with my mind nor with my reason. The place of God in my soul is blank. There is no God in me. When the pain of longing is so great, I just long and long for God and it is then that I feel - He does not want me. He is not there...God does not want me. Sometimes, I just hear my own heart cry out - "My God" and nothing else comes. The torture and pain I can't explain."

I read this last night in Adoration and could not believe what I was reading. This was written by one of, if not the holiest woman to live in the 20th century: Mother Teresa. It's in the book "Come Be My Light" and even still, I cannot believe that a woman like Mother Teresa felt the exact same way I do a lot of the time. It was a real wake up call. A soon to be saint felt the EXACT same way I did. For me, Mother Teresa put a feeling that I couldn't put words to into words for me. It's actually kind of encouraging. I mean, maybe this is the way I'm supposed to feel. My suffering puts me in union with Christ's passion.

Sorry this wasn't a little longer. I don't have much time tonight.