I know a guy at Xavier named Luke. He's a huge advocate for suicide prevention. He was featured on the local news in Cincinnati for what he does. He almost committed suicide in high school. I felt really called to share a little bit of my story with him, so I sent him a message on Facebook. First, I thanked him for all his work with the suicide prevention movement. Then I let him know why I left Xavier: I was afraid that I was going to kill myself by way of cutting. Here's the response I got from him:
Catherine,
Thank you so much for sharing your story with me, and sharing such kind words towards me. I am sorry to hear that you had to go through shit, but I am so happy you are still here! The healing process can be long and you may slip back sometimes, but know that you have friends around you and there is plenty of support out there! It took me over 2 years before I started to become open with my story. I starting sharing in a big way, which is certainly not normal (typical, average, you know what I mean). The biggest thing I always want people to know is that they are not alone; it's the whole reason I speak out. They are not the first ones to think they are too different than everyone else in this world, too bad at school, don't have any friends, etc. Talking about our pain and troubles is a way to heal the wounds, but it takes lots of time, reflection, and prayer. God wants you here, truly. This beautiful world he created would be boring if everyone who didn't "fit in" left before it was their time; but you already know this as you had the courage, strength, and love for others to put the blade down.
Just remember: It gets better, always.
If you ever need someone to talk to, I am always here.
Luke
It's just another reminder that I'm not alone in my struggle, more divine intervention
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