The Human Experience

Tonight, some friends and I watched the new movie called "The Human Experience". It was made by a Catholic media company called Grassroots Films, Inc. and it was really good. It hit me really hard though. Throughout the entire movie, the main theme was the dignity of human life. In seeing all the suffering that the homeless people in New York, the handicapped children in Peru, and the AIDS patients and lepers in Africa dealt with, I realized, I have absolutely no right to feel the way I do. They are all going through SO much worse than I am, but they see a purpose in life. Over and over, they said that if God allowed them to wake up that morning, there was a purpose to their life. It just blew me away that people who are going through more shit than I ever could imagine, they keep their heads up and a smile on their face. Here I am, a 20-year-old college kid, who's never been forced to miss a meal because there wasn't food, who has a warm dorm room to come back to, who's been in school for over 15 years, who's going to study abroad in Austria next semester, who consistently finds the need to cut. Who am I to feel this way? I have absolutely no right to feel like my suffering is unbearable. It really made me think, but it also made me feel bad for feeling the way I do. I know I can't help feeling the way that I do, but after seeing this, I can't help but look at everything and think I'm a piece of crap.