Well, I finally did it. I told my parents EVERYTHING last night. I wrote them a 4 page letter and e-mailed it to my dad. I was going to just send it by regular mail, but then I realized I'd be in agony waiting for them to get it, so I knew it had to be done last night. Someone who had a big part in my strength to tell my parents is my best friend, Gabbie. We've been friends since first grade (almost 15 years) and she has been there for me every single step of the way. She told me last night how much I needed to tell my parents. After walking around outside for almost an hour in tears, praying to God for the strength to send it, I finally sent the letter. After my parents read it, my dad called me. We ended up talking about it for over an hour. He told me that they're not disappointed in me and that they will do anything to get me the help that I need. He said that they're my biggest advocate because no matter what, I'll always be their baby girl, that their love for me is unconditional, and that nothing I could ever do would make them love me less.
Now that they know, a HUGE burden has been lifted. I cannot even explain it. I don't have to hide anymore. I don't have to hide the scars or my tattoo when I'm home anymore. Today, I feel better than I have in a long time. There's no longer a secret eating away at me. Right now, I'm thanking God and Mama Mary for giving me the strength to tell them. It's something I've been keeping from them since November 2008. This was a HUGE step in my recovery, bigger than anything before.
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