My Secret Got Posted!

This is a secret I created in May. I mailed it to Frank Warren, the creator of PostSecret, three weeks ago. It was posted on today's secrets (Go to postsecret.com and check them out). I got on about 1am this morning to see the new secrets and imagine my surprise when I saw this. I was like, "Wait a minute! I RECOGNIZE THAT!" I immediately called my friend, Rose, and told her to get online as soon as she could to see the new PostSecret. I told her that there was one she'd recognize. Right before I mailed in the post card, I took a picture of it and sent it to her. I don't really know why, but I did. So at like 1:30 this morning, I received a picture message from her on my cell phone. It was of her making a peace sign next to the secret. Then she sent me 2 text messages. The first one said "I am so honored and cool that I know the story behind a real PostSecret!" The second said, "I'm so glad that millions of people get to read your secret and become a part of your story." Never in a million years would I imagine that my secret would be posted for millions of people to see.

If you've read any of my other posts, I'm sure you can assume (and assume correctly) that the priest I referenced on the post card is indeed, Fr. Greg. The night he held me was when he was here in Steubenville a few weeks ago, at the end of May. I was in kind of a funky point at that time where the suicide thoughts came back. I was kinda freaked out that I actually might go through with it. Well, Fr. Greg hugged me and just held me as I cried. He reminded me what it feels like to be genuinely loved. It actually felt kind of like God had his arms around me. Read my blog post about it. It's from the end of May.

I thank God everyday for the incredible and holy priests that have been brought into my life, as well as those who serve in His Church around the world. Praise God for creating such wonderful men!

Today's day 11. I'm felling really good about it this time. I'm gaining strength going one day at a time as well as really turning to the Lord in my struggle. Fr. Mike said something to me in spiritual direction yesterday that made suffering all kinda make sense. He said "You can't have the Resurrection without the Cross." I guess I never really thought of it that way (even though I should have), but when he said that to me yesterday, something finally clicked in my head.