Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Shutting Down

Please, please just pray for my heart right now. Things are going downhill. I was a pall bearer at my grandma's funeral yesterday and I pray to God I never have to carry a casket again. It keeps just flashing through my head and it's screwing with my emotions.

My counselor is gone for a month. He wants me to see someone else while he's gone, but that's not happening. I'm beginning to emotionally shut down.

I know Fr. Rick and Fr. Brad are sick of me. I talked to Fr. Greg on the phone Friday night for the first time in 3 months and I can tell that he is too.

I'm beginning to isolate myself from everyone. It's only a matter of time until I become like a zombie. Just living, no emotions.

Oh, look. My life's going to hell again. Shocking.

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