Wednesday, June 8, 2011

A Prayer Full of "Why?"

Lord,

Why am I so afraid to let people love me? Why do I have such a hard time accepting love? Why did I let my insecurities absolutely ruin my friendship/possible relationship with Dan? I know You love me, but why do I still feel like I'm not worthy of anyone's time or their love? Just tonight, I sent Fr. Greg a text asking if he ever regrets telling me the night that we met that I had to call him before I was allowed to cut. I know he loves me. He's never left my side and he just told me that he'd do anything for me. Why do I doubt that he loves me? Lord, so much good could have come from a relationship with Dan, but here I am wondering what it would have been like if for once I stuck around instead of running away from it.

Show me the way, Lord, because I'm not really sure where to go from here.

1 comment:

  1. Ive told you this before but i will tell you as many times as possible, you are more than worthy of peoples time, attention and most of all love, you are one of the most wonderful people ive ever known, i know you and i have had plenty of ups and downs but not once have i given up on you, not once have i walked for forever, im always here if you want me to be, you will eventually find the courage to stop running away and when that happens the people around you will be incredibly lucky and grateful

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