I let my insecurities ruin something else in my life. Shocking, I know. It made me wonder if I'd really changed. Then, while on Tumblr last night, I stumbled upon someone's blog that had some extremely graphic pictures of people cutting and even some videos of people cutting. It was really disturbing. Then I realized that until March, I wouldn't have thought that. I would have gotten sucked in and then triggered and cut. Now, I'm just here thinking "Holy crap...that used to be me." Praise God for His healing touch and how much He changed His unworthy servant's life. Normally, with what happened yesterday, I would've turned to the blade, but I didn't. You know, now that I think of it, I don't think cutting even entered my mind when it all went down.
My deliverance in Austria makes me wonder how anyone can question the existence of God. Seriously...If there was no God, I would have been dead years ago and I sure wouldn't be 3 months clean with 1 slip up. God has done the most insane things in my life and I am so blessed.
"And He said to the woman, 'Your faith has saved you; go in peace'." -Luke 7:50
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