The Love of Christ

Yesterday, I drove to Steubenville (which is 4 hours from Cincinnati) to look at an apartment. First of all, I saw Fr. Rick and it made my life. He gives the best hugs of anyone I know :) Fr. Rick was SO happy to see me and I know he could just SEE the difference from when he last saw me like 6 months ago. I can't wait to tell him about my incredible semester in Austria. That's not what I'm blogging about though. This is about Christ.

My 4 hour drives are times I cherish because I get some serious prayer time in (as well as some praise and worship as well as singing at the top of my lungs to those songs you just have to do that to. Hahaha). Yesterday, I spent 8 hours driving to and back from Steubenville, so I had a lot of time. I recently found these videos on YouTube where this guy mixes songs with pastors' sermons. It's awesome. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE watch it and listen. All of his videos really make you think.



Some of my time yesterday was spent meditating on Christ's love. It BLOWS my mind that God knew who I was going to be and love me anyway. He knew I was going to be addicted to cutting, but Jesus Christ died on the Cross anyway. Yeah, Fr. Greg's told me that a million times. But, in the car, it finally hit me. The hugeness (I can't think of another word right now. Haha) of what He did finally sunk in. I really can't even put into words what I felt in the car. As a theology major and as someone who has experienced the power of His love, I know that God's love is beyond human understanding. But, in the car, I felt like maybe, even for just a minute, I began to understand it. God gave His Son so that YOU (yes, you, reading this right now) could be reunited with the Father. Christ payed the debt. No more slaves to sin, but we were made free!

I am so blessed. Seriously. I don't deserve a single thing that the Lord has done for me, but it's not about how good I am. It's about how good He is.

I ask for your prayers as I have finally stopped ignoring the fact that God may be calling me to religious life. There has been this nudge for the last 5 years and when we were in London one weekend during my semester abroad, my roommate Emily and I went to Adoration at a convent we stumbled across. I sat there with the sisters and thought "I could do this." Since then, it's been on my heart. Whatever God wants is what I want. All I want is for God to receive every single ounce of glory. I have begun serious discernment about what my vocation is. I still have absolutely no idea, but I'm praying about it.

"The love of God changes us. We're never the same after we encounter the love of God." -Kim Walker