60 days

Wow...60 days. 60 days clean. Sometimes I can't believe it. I've only gotten this far by the grace of God. If He hadn't intervened when he did, I probably wouldn't have made it to today. Life is generally really good. I went home this weekend to see Matt Maher and Tenth Avenue North play a concert together, which was really cool! I took 17 friends with me and it was so great. I cried when Tenth Ave sang "You Are More" because that song is totally my life story. My household big sister was there and when she realized what song was playing, she turned around and hugged me and whispered in my ear, "You're so much more." What was even crazier was that Mike, the lead singer of Tenth Ave, made eye contact with me. We were close enough that I know he could see us and I wonder if he recognized me from two years before. I don't know. Maybe I'm crazy, but if he did make eye contact with me, then that makes that song so much more special.

I am more than a cutter. It took so long for me to realize that. For almost 2 years, I let it define me. My friend Jackie has been a huge support the last 6 months and the other day, she made a comment. She said, "You know...you don't wear your jacket as much as you used to." I said, "Yeah. It's because I'm finally not letting my struggle define me anymore."

These post-its are from Jackie :)