Shoulder Surgery

I miss my kids. I just want to be in Romania.

And now I won't be back in Romania until June. I have to have shoulder surgery next Thursday and I'm not excited. It came from an injury that happened 4 days before I left Romania. I did everything I could do avoid surgery: 6 weeks of physical therapy, 2 cortisone shots, 2 months of anti-inflammatory meds, and 1 steroid. I was supposed to go back at the end of March, but then the other day my shoulder popped funny and the pain intensified to the point where I could hardly take it. After a night of no sleep, I called the orthopedic and saw him Friday, and we decided surgery was all that we could do to fix this.

I'm trying so hard to look at this with eyes of faith. It's WAY easier said than done. I'm trying to believe God has a reason for me to be here. What it is, I have no freakin' clue right now. But, I'm here and there isn't a damn thing I can do about it.

Say some prayers for me. I miss my kids insanely and this shoulder thing is causing lots of problems too.