"Worn" by Tenth Avenue North

If you know me at all, you know that one of my favorite bands of all time is Tenth Avenue North. I saw them first after they just put out their first album and were on tour with Santus Real. I was blessed to meet the lead singer and be able to tell him how their music has gotten me through some rough nights. In the last 4 years, they've become huge. Their latest album has an AMAZING song on it called "Worn" and talk about a song being a personal prayer. I feel like that song is the prayers I've said to God from the very depths of my soul on many hard nights. They recently put out the music video for that song and it's beautiful. You can watch it here: http://youtu.be/zulKcYItKIA (I can't get it to embed correctly. Sorry)

I'm tired, I'm worn.
My heart is heavy
From the work it takes
To keep on breathing

I've made mistakes
I've let me hope fail
My soul feels crushed
By the weight of this world.

I know that you can give me rest
So I cry out with all that I have left

Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart
That's frail and torn
I wanna know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that's dead inside can be reborn
'Cause I'm worn.

I know I need to lift my eyes up
But I'm too weak
Life just won't let up


And I know that you can give me rest
So I cry out with all that I have left

Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart
That's frail and torn
I wanna know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that's dead inside can be reborn
'Cause I'm worn.

My prayers are wearing thin
I'm worn
Even before the day begins
I'm worn
I've lost my will to fight
I'm worn
So Heave, come and flood my eyes


I know that you can give me rest
So I cry out with all that I have left

Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart
That's frail and torn
I wanna know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that's dead inside can be reborn
'Cause all that's dead inside can be reborn

Though I'm worn.
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And I just realized as I'm writing this, that I am 15 months cut-free today. Praise God! He's so good!

Pray for me. Surgery is on Thursday.

Shoulder Surgery

I miss my kids. I just want to be in Romania.

And now I won't be back in Romania until June. I have to have shoulder surgery next Thursday and I'm not excited. It came from an injury that happened 4 days before I left Romania. I did everything I could do avoid surgery: 6 weeks of physical therapy, 2 cortisone shots, 2 months of anti-inflammatory meds, and 1 steroid. I was supposed to go back at the end of March, but then the other day my shoulder popped funny and the pain intensified to the point where I could hardly take it. After a night of no sleep, I called the orthopedic and saw him Friday, and we decided surgery was all that we could do to fix this.

I'm trying so hard to look at this with eyes of faith. It's WAY easier said than done. I'm trying to believe God has a reason for me to be here. What it is, I have no freakin' clue right now. But, I'm here and there isn't a damn thing I can do about it.

Say some prayers for me. I miss my kids insanely and this shoulder thing is causing lots of problems too.