I was SO close to cutting last night. Out of no where I was triggered and it was bad. I reached out to a few people but got no response. I tried to distract myself, but after about 20 minutes, I couldn't handle the urge. I grabbed a blade, ready to make myself bleed, put it to my arm, but for some reason, I didn't.
I should be proud that I didn't cut, right? Well, I'm not. I still feel like shit.
200 days cut-free on Saturday.
I cried when I read this.
ReplyDeleteI am SO SO SO SO SO SO SO glad you didnt go through with your urges.
200 days is stellar. You inspire me.